Don't Look Back

These are the most important three words when dropping your daughter off at day care.  Don't look back, no matter what.  Once you drop her off, quickly evacuate the premises, no dilly-dallying, no "wave bye bye to mommy!", nothing. 
I am so lucky that Kaitlyn's daycare is only 8 minutes from my work.  If I needed to pick her up in an instant, I could...well an 8 minute instant.  When I leave work every day, I know that in 8 minutes, I get to see my beautiful daughter's gummy smile, which is all for me.  I also get to see her reach out her arms for me, a recent trick that she's picked up thanks to daddy ;)
I am also extremely lucky and thankful that I get to see Kaitlyn on my lunch break to breastfeed her.  That break in my work day is very helpful and getting to see her halfway thru always puts an extra hop in my step. 
But today I did the un-thinkable.  After feeding her, I just sat with her in my lap and rocked back and forth with her.  She usually goes for a nap after lunch, and she was looking pretty tired.  I handed her over to one of her teachers, Miss Amber, and gathered up my stuff.  I said bye bye to Kaitlyn, kissed her cheek, and off I went.  Then as I was reaching the door, for whatever reason....I did it.  I looked back at her.  And there she was, cute as could be, just staring at me, wondering where I was going.  My heart dropped because all I wanted to do was to scoop her up and bring her home with me and give her a million and one kisses.  But instead, I smiled at her and quickly left the room. 
As I started walking to the front door, I heard a few babies crying in the back rooms.....but it wasn't Kaitlyn, at least that's the story I'm sticking to.  I learned my lesson, don't ever look back, just don't do it!

Love this girl to pieces!